The scenario: I am all alone, working in our remote work center and am executing a repair on a circuit board.
I bring my laptop with me to work for several reasons, one of which is for entertainment purposes, for playing music files whilst that I work. I normally listen to Classical music on the job, but yesterday, I felt like listening to some oldies.
One of the songs which that I played was "Double - The Captain of Her Heart":
"It was way past midnight
And she still couldn’t fall asleep.
This night the dream was leaving
She tried so hard to keep.
And with the new day’s dawning
She felt it drift away.
Not only for a cruise
Not only for a day
Too long ago, too long apart
She couldn’t wait another day for
The captain of her heart.
As the day came up, she made a stop.
She stopped waiting another day for
The captain of her heart."
The beat of that song is lovely and very soothing, but it triggered a negative feeling within me, a very painful recollection, that of the extreme trauma which was induced by the loss of my man when he was transferred to CA and all of a sudden, I found myself crying hard. I thought to myself,
"Oh SH**, girl; you do NOT need to be listening to THIS song right now."
(nodding her head)
And there are other songs which have such an effect upon me and I avoid playing these, for precisely that reason.
Music affects me VERY strongly; nominally it calms down and soothes the "savage Amazon woman within me" but for instance, when I am angry I will avoid playing such music, as Vivaldi’s "Winter" and "Summer", for these will sometimes exponentially amplify my anger.
But, how about YOU?
(shaking her head)
Do some songs and styles of music affect you very powerfully, sometimes very negatively so?
@ "Rotting Slop"
But what are you asserting, hon (and I mean that NOT as a challenge)?
What that I read from yours, is that you experienced a major shift in your thought pattern - is that accurate, sweetie?
@ "Spanx"
You do err.
(shaking her head)
You have no idea…whom that you are dealing with…and I say that not at all as some emotionally derived "threat".
Why would I do something like that - ?
Do you really think that that link somehow resonates with or appeals to me - ?
Clearly, you assume much and you have no idea as to the emotional and cognitive composition of the woman and human being with whom that you are dealing with.
That of course, comes as no surprise to me.
THIS moves me:
http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/g/gordon_lightfoot/softly.html
But this would not touch you, would it - ?
@ "Stefanie"
(blasting "Van Halen - Running With the Devil" on her computer’s sound system, feeling lonely, feeling mean)
I am familiar with Pachelbel’s work.
I love In your eyes by Peter Gabriel (I always think of Cusack in Say anything…my! what a scene). The song is really powerful to me, whenever I feel sad or I just need to calm down I listen to it (ipod, walking with the wind…wow love the feeling). The song rootless tree by Damien Rice has gotten me out of a lot of things and Cannonball as well (usually when I need a good cry)
And of course no list would be complete without some Radiohead (there, there and no surprises are my two personal favourites). Since I was a young teen I’ve been listening to Tupac Shakur religiously, so I’d have to say that Unconditional Love and Dear Mama are my favs. Notorious BIG holds a special place in my musical heart as well, I’d say Sky is the limit that favours my ears. And one last rap song that makes me go "Ouh-ouh-Ouh’ is the message from Nas.
And a few songs that just make me happy are New York, New York by Frank Sinatra; London Calling by the Clash (triggers fond memories) and Fixed to ruin by Sam Roberts (kind of recognize myself in this song).
"And there are other songs which have such an effect upon me and I avoid playing these, for precisely that reason." I understand what you mean, I went through some stuff in my teens and there were two songs that I’d play all the time and whenever I hear these songs I just want to crumble. So yeah, I avoid them to the best of my abilities.
Edit: I’m listening to some Damien Rice again, and frankly I’d put most of his songs on my list (e.g.: Volcano, The Blowers Daughter, Delicate, Amie (really powerful that one), I Remember, 9 Crimes (This one would go in my top 10 favourite songs of all time) Baby Sister…)